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Tuesday, August 18, 2009 @ 6:15 PM

Won't be blogging here anymore :D .
Ask me for the new link then. HAHAHAHA .

Tuesday, July 21, 2009 @ 7:01 PM

What's with blogger man ._. Can't type a simple entry luh . Went out with Isabel,Chrysillia,Celine,Wanzhen,Angeline,YingYi ,WangTing and her sis to AMK hub on saturday. Woke up, body aching all over, high fever of 38.2 , and throat pain. Though i couldn't go out , but still managed to sneak out and meet them. Overall was fun (: . Watching Harry Potter And The Half Blood Prince, was terribly dissapointed . Thought would be very exciting as the book itself , but nope . Was boring throughout . Freezing in the theatre . Went home around 11pm . Was supposed to go out with CJ on sunday, but she overslept , and was locked in thanks to dad -.- . Didn't attend school on Monday and Today , as im sick . Had the symtoms of H1N1 .

Monday, July 13, 2009 @ 7:06 PM

I'm sorta having a fever now.
Suckyyyyy ._.

Had a fight with melissa, yes we always fight , but i just broke down all of a sudden.
Don't know why, maybe cause i'm tired of enduring the pain , the torture.
And i had to cried in the toilet silently , how pathetic.
So i actually called Lfei up. His always the 1st person that come across in my mind, cause his always available! Okay only for me la ^^ . HAHAH .
Then realised i woke him up from his sleep. Can't believe he sleep during the day , active at night.
Night Owl.

As i was saying , I CRIED FCKING HARD OKAY.
SOOOO DEPRESSED I TELL YA.
I felt emotional unstable, as flashes of playback in my mind, i really had the urge to kill myself.

But then, we talked for awhile , and soon hang up cause this fellow sounded drowsy .

So i texted to Baby about it ..
HIS REALLY FCKING SWEET ^^ .
So protective, wanted me to move to his house, with him taking care of me.
awwwww .
But i doubt i can, cause yingyi gave me a warning. gawddd >:

Anyway, I HAVE THIS CHINESE ORAL THINGY ON WEDNESDAY.
HEARD IT WAS FOR MY O LEVEL !?
OMFGGGG .

I'm not really good with chinese , especially in dialact.
I get 'stage fright' , mumbling words, argh argh.

Sunday, July 12, 2009 @ 1:10 PM

Did i mention i really hate 2009 ?
SUCKY SUCKY.

Honestly, when i heard i got into 3Sin, my heart immediately sunk !
I was totally seperated with clique , Wz & Isabel & Yvonne in 3 Charity , Angeline & CongHao in 3 humility , Chrys & Celine in 3Unity .

Which resulted me crying ALMOST everyday during the 1st few weeks of school .

Doesn't mean that LiJun is no good, but i didn't really knew her, or even had a proper talk with her during 2007/2008.

But now, it's July 2009 already ! And i'm kinda happy with my class ,
excluding the part where i'm found to be a bitch in many people eyes.
But yea.. I'M GLAD I HAVE LIJUN, NADIAH , STEPHANIE , CHARMAINE , XINHUI , AND EVEN (SHERVIN , SOKMAN , JIANMENG) .
At least i don't find it a torture going to school everyday with them ^^ .

I realised i tend to have the habit to pon school in 2009 .
Not intentionally at 1st !
Gastric pain was hurting me okay !
But ya, slowly i tend to use gastric pain as an excuse to get out of school .

I'M HOPELESS AT STUDY OK. I REALLY ADMIT.
NOT THAT I'M LAZY OR WHATEVER THING.
I JUST , FIND I CAN'T DO IT.

I hate it when mum starts to get obsessed with what the fortune teller tolds her , that i will be damn successful in future if i get my head into studying !
And it gets into my head ever since, -.- .

And he said " All your relationships would end very fast, as you will get cheated by each guys . "
WTFFFFF . SLAP HIM MAN !

Thanks to what he said, i'm really starting to get paranoid , worrying about Alex dumping me or whatever shyt .
z.z

I lost a few important stuffs to me during 2009 .
Friendship, Trust .

Back in 2007/2008 , i had tons of 'friends' , but i started to lost contact with each and every of them . I bet they don't even remember my name -.- .

Right now in 2009, though i really hate it, but i have to face the facts.

Time cannot be rewind .

I rather to have just , a few couple of good friends , whom i can really trust them with all my darkest secrets .
Then a big group of friends , whom i don't even think i can trust.

I poured out my deepest thoughts and feelings to ZhenRong on Thursday.
To be more exact , His my that handsome tutor i have been talking about.
The one who is like, 10 years older than me ): .

His the last person i ever thought i would cry in front of him, But i did that in the end..

I told him what's my point of view in life, How i really feel towards my family , that i just locked it right inside my heart.

Though it was just a few minutes , but i felt much much better .

Honestly , if i have any problems that i wanna get off my chest,
I only confide to Lfei, CJ .
That's it.

Not that i don't trust clique, but i find that they probably are too busy with their own problems.
Wherelse YingYi , sometimes i really hate it when she gets sarcastic with me -.- .

I hate it when people ' fu yan ' me , giving me those sarcastic remarks or comments.
I hate it when i have a problem, and i told you about it , you just keep telling me it's alright , when you perfectly knew it's not gonna be alright in the 1st place !
I hate it when i'm left alone .
I hate it when you come to find me when your in trouble, and kicks me off when you don't need me.

-Not referring to anyone-

Sunday, June 28, 2009 @ 5:42 PM

JUNE HOLIDAY IS AWESOME !

Don't wanna go back to school man ):
4 weeks just pass so quickly, argh argh .
I still wanna have fun , i don't wanna study !

ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR .

The last week of holiday was freaking fun ! And tiring at the same time ):

Monday- 5 HOURS OF MATHS SUPP. IN SCHOOL .
I WAS LIKE " SIAO AH MISS GOH, PLANNED 5 HOURS OF MATHS FOR US . -SCREAMS- "

So i actually slept at 11pm the night before . SO GUAI RIGHT ^^ .
Previously i had a similar maths lesson which is at freaking 8am ?!
And i actually slept at 3-4am plus .
Was on phone with dear love . ):

"ONCE BITTEN TWICE SHY" .

1st hour was completely long ..
Lijun and i were doing countdown ,
4 hours for me to go ! 8 hours more for her ! ( due to band practice , so she gotta stay at school from 8am- 5am , HAHA . )

AND AND, MISS GOH ACTUALLY RELEASED US 1 HOUR EARLIER !
WOWOWOOW .

So i went back home, sibei tired la !
And i waited for dear WONGCHUNJING to be released from work.

Went meet her at 5plus , went to get the comics.
The shop lady was very nice ^^ .

Hang around there for like 1 hour ?
Then went to tampiness .
Queeue up for the doctor appointment.

She specializes in dealing with face conditions .
SO YEAP, CJ WAS PRETTY DESPO TO SEE HER.
LOL.

But the thing was, QUEEUE FREAKING LONG LA.
LOLL .
When we reach there , it was like, " pai chang long " .
):

SOOO, WE WAITED WHILE WE READ THE COMICS, AND THE CLINIC FINALLY OPEN !!!!

LUCKILY, WE REACH THERE IN TIME, AS WE'RE THE FREAKING LUCKY ONES TO BE LAST.

REST OF THE PEOPLE WHO QUEEUED BEHIND US HAD TO LEAVE.
HAHAHAHHA .

HENG HENG ;X

But we still let a lady who sort of begged us to let her be in front of us -_- .

WENT FOR DINNER AT KFC, WHICH WAS CJ AND CALYN'S WORK PLACE.

( This charbo say for so long want quit the job, but still don't want -.- )

AND WE MADE A VERY SUDDEN DECISION.

TO WALK BACK FROM TAMPINESS TO MY HOUSE (BEDOK) .

I really dunno why i agreed to this crazy girl's idea , but still, we really walk back, AND IT TOOK US 2 HOURS . -_-

CAMWHORED ALL THE WAY. BUT CJ ACCIDENTALLY DELETED ALL MY PHOTOS IN THE CAM. LOLLLL .

She kept constantly apologising to me ):
And she insisted us to retake all the jumping photos.

We're like jumping around the pavement , and roads like siaolang ._.

GOD DAMN TIRED WHEN WE REACH HOME. LEGS ACHING .

Took a bath and went in my room.
Helped CJ do pedicure . LOLL .
I almost got my hair and face painted with nail polish. YUCK YUCK.

Took a tiny weeny nap for awhile, and went off again at 1am for the appointment.

Stayed there for like, half an hour or so. AND THAT DAMN LADY AT THE COUNTER FCKING RUDE -'- .

They send a sms telling us to arrive at 11.40pm , when actually before that when CJ asked for the estimated time when we should come, THE MALAY COUNTER LADY SAID 1AM LO !!!

AND WHEN WE TOLD THE LADY, SHE JUST REPLIED

" It's none of my buisness -diao- "

.

I almost wanna jump on her and pull her goddamn hair .

LUCKLY, THE DOCTOR WAITED FOR US .
HOW'S THAT LADY. PFFFT.

Paid like, $90+$120+$60 = ?

$270 !!!

CJ was like , " 爱美就要付出代价 " .
-_- .

Went home and slept at 2am ++ .

AND I MADE BABY REALLY REALLY PISSED OFF/ANGRY AT ME THAT NIGHT.
T.T.
I swear i almost cried.

BUT STILL EVERYTHING WAS ALRIGHT IN THE END ^^.

TUESDAY- Didn't went for the maths supplementary, cause I OVER SLEPT.

I bet LIJUN hates me that morning. LOL .

WEDNESDAY- WENT OUT WITH CJ AGAIN ^^ .
BUGIS BUGIS . FOREVER MY SHOPPING PLACE. LOL.

I spent about .. $90++ ?
>: .
I bought mummy a dress too . ^^ .
YET I WAS FCKING FURIOUS WHEN I SAW THE EXACT DRESS GOING AT HALF PRICE OF WHAT I FORKED OUT.
-SMACKS-

1st time went shopping felt sibei tong ku.
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And went for dinner at the cafe , LIKE FINALLY !
WENT THERE WANTED TO HAVE DINNER PREVIOUSLY 2 TIMES, YET IT CLOSED -'- .

So i was freaking happily la, obviously when we went in. LOL

Ordered our meals, and we both were like completely famished.
YUMYUM ^^.

THURSDAY- I forgot what i did ._.

FRIDAY- MEET UP WITH DEAR CJ AGAIN !
MUAHAHA.
Went to shop shop ! I FINALLY BOUGHT MY HEELS.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH .

Cost me a bomb ._.

Wanted to buy more... but CJ kept pulling me away >:

Rushed back for tuition last minute , Argh.
Couldn't concentrate leh, But the thought of Mr Ho leaving for AUSTRALIA AND WOULD NOT BE HERE IN 1 MONTH, MEANS NO TUITION FOR 1 MONTH.
YAYAYYA . ^^.

Went bought my tiramisu , and went back home with CJ .

SATURDAY- Was supposed to meet with YY to deal with my homework, BUT WAS CANCELLED.
Damn sucky luh my mood. -_- .

Then isabel texted me at 12pm plus for last minute outing, SO YAY ^^.

Got prepared in 1hour time, but was lazy to get out of house, taking mrt all the way to Plaza Sin.
SOOOO, i took a taxi instead ;xxx .

Reached there at about 2.30 pm , kinda awkward at 1st when met them, due to the previous outing, kinda had a conflict with them.
But at the end of the day, i really never regret ^^ .

I MISS MISS THOSE GIRLS ALOT, ESP. CLIQUE .
♥♥♥.

Went shopping again, BUGIS. HAHAHAHAH .
Isabel wanted to shopped there la , soo ^^.

Shopped for awhile, went bought tickets for the movie , " Ghosts Of Girlfriends Past " .
Yeap, my 2nd time of watching ~

Not bad though, but if i watched it again for the 3rd time, i would sure fall asleep. LOL.

Went back to shop again ^^ .

Legs were aching , bleeding still . ALAMAK.
So all of us went our seperate ways, Mum called for shopping spree with her.
REALLY WANTED TO GO ):

But can't stand the pain, so cancelled .

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Wednesday, June 24, 2009 @ 11:57 PM

Back with blogging.
I found this really really neat skin , Love it to the max ! ♥
But i'm really lazy to update the profile ..
(x

I'm crazy about comics these few days, influenced CJ too .
Have been spending money on some stuffs that i should not even do so..
Yet can't resist temptation.

Went out with CJ on monday till 1am plus ..
Lazy to elaborate . FUN FUN FUN TO THE MAX.
But i made him really angry that day...
At that very second, i thought he wanted a breakup.
I could really break into tears for the second time.
Bwahs.

Just came back from outing with CJ once again.
I spent $80 ++ on clothes , food .
But i spent half of it on a dress for mummy ^^ .
The shop lady seems really nice , friendly too.
She's actually going 50 , when she looks like 30+ ?
Uh, it's impossible.

And then i found out i got dupe , saw the exact dress at another shop at half price of what i paid.
Wthzxzxzxz .

I saw the heels i wanted, i saw the bag i want badly ...

So i made CJ came back with me on friday (x
Yet couldn't go out with Bel on friday, sorry sorry ):

My homework is half done..
Argh, shag .

Thursday, June 11, 2009 @ 11:06 PM

I don't know if anyone is reading this dead blog or not , cause i have not been updating ;x
When i just clicked on this particular page, my mind went blank at once !
Even though if i have ALOT to rant about .
heh .

It's the June Holidays, time passes REALLY fast eh.
It's the second week , i barely touched on my homework ):
Though i remembered i did touched on my chemistry paper, mostly copied from YaChing's .
I REALLY WANTED TO DO ON MY OWN , but i gave up when i finished the 40 MCQs. HAHA.
So i took YaChing's paper for reference ;x

Couldn't really catch up with clique on outings , last minute backed up on 3 of the outings ?! ):
Walao, thanks to quarreling with dad almost EVERYDAY LA !

Locked me up, don't let me out of the freaking house.

*Mum's crying at this moment after a talk with grandma *
Really hate it when people cry, makes me feel damn fcking helpless :/

I miss clique badly, and i really do.
Just the 8 of us, hanging out, laughing like nobody's buisness .
I miss the old times.

Sometimes, i will just relflect on my past behaviour towards people .
And i fcking hate myself.

I blame myself for not taking the initiative when dealing with matters.
I blame myself for NOT TRYING MY BEST TO HELP OTHERS WHEN IN NEED.
I blame myself for drifting apart from clique.
I blame myself for not opening up .

It's just fear. That very fear deep inside of me.

*
Melissa just cursed me to die.
Yea i wish i can just die and leave this god damn world.
I really wish i could.

But i cannot bear my loved ones, i still have so much i want to do !

I thought this holiday would be a best time for a break, yet not .
Sucky homework );

Anyway, i just came back with mum from shopping .
I bought 3 pairs of heels, and make up.
AHHM THANKS MUMMY <3.

I have the urge to grow up, working , and spending money, MONEY THAT I EARN .
With no limit on daily allowance.
Sounds fun :/

I wanna have my own bank account, my own Visa card .
roarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr .

money , money $_$ .

Baby is like on a fishing trip today.
Nia eh, act 1 go fish . HAHAHAH .
And his phone went dead, HOW CAN !? ):

I'm gonna spammed him ...
But on second thought, NO.
Phone bill boom liao leh );

Monday, June 1, 2009 @ 11:24 AM

I'm crying like some pathetic shyt right now.
I fcking hate many many people .
Dad scolded me useless again , ONCE AGAIN . TY LAH HORH.
I KNOW I'M NOTHING TO YOU RIGHT.
VENT YOUR ANGER ON ME FOR WHAT .
NB _l_ .

MUM KEPT GIVING ME EMPTY PROMISES AGAIN .
BLOODY BITCH.

CJ PRATICALLY 'DUMPED' ME FOR HER SHITTY SCHOOL OUTING.

I seriously don't know how to look at her when i knew i'm exploding with anger deep inside.

-'-

Thursday, May 28, 2009 @ 7:39 PM

This world can be so cruel .
I hate everyone now . It felt as if every person i see is a 2 faced monster or something.
You can be so sweet and lovable , yet a backstabber , a bitch behind my back .
I hate it when people assume i'm in the wrong , when i keep my mouth damn shut just to prevent any conflicts.
It doesn't mean i acknowledge I'M IN THE WRONG when i'm silent.
PEOPLE JUST ASSUME OR PREDICT WITH WHAT THEY SEE AND NOT CARING ABOUT THE TRUTH FACTS .

How pathetic.

I'm not saying i'm perfect, with no flaws.
But yea, i really tried to be pleasant in front of my friends , i keep mum about unpleasant stuffs i hear, nasty words coming in from one side , and out from the other ear.

I don't want it to seem that im being biased or something, i'm not siding with which side , but the facts.
Why can't just people try to be calm. To think clearly before they open their mouth.
Why can't they just put themselves in other people's shoe.

Why does it seem like everyone is like an angel with 2 horns .
Pretending to be angelic, when they are god damn evil .
What's with all these pretending ?

I'm tired trying to please my family , or maybe even friends.
It's hard being the middleman, trying not to get involved in anything.

It seems heartless if i just leave my hands off the matter and walk away, Is that really what a friend should do ?
I just want to help .That's all .

Why do human minds have to be so complicated ? Why can't we think simply .
It doesn't serve us any good then.

Not refering to anyone , just pointing out my views and rants. It seems like im typing out a piece of crap as it just comes off from my mind .

Aiya, i think i'm being a bitch too .

Thursday, May 21, 2009 @ 8:45 PM

Today is indeed a fcking day for me.
I just couldn't control anymore, and i fcking cried inside the taxi.
Not forgetting it's full of the smell of smoke , AND THAT TAXI DRIVER HAS COMPLETELY SUCKY ATTITUDE .
HE ACTUALLY DAO-ED ME , THROUGHOUT . I KINDLY TOLD HIM MY ADDRESS, HE JUST DIAM DIAM . CONTINUE DRIVING.
WHEN I SAID TURN RIGHT TO HIGHWAY, HE TURN LEFT -.- .
IDIOT.

(I really wanna calm myself down, but still can't control )

Shall cut it short form , as im freaking tired .

Today is the heats for sports carnival , the captain's ball and floorball.
Well, i , angeline , Audrey , Wanzhen were the emphere . ( referee or something. )
In charged for the Sec 1,2 and 3 matches.
AND I FCKING REGRET IT OK !?

I CAN'T BELIEVE SOME OF THEM, MAYBE A FEW , BUT I SWEAR IM GONNA RMBR THEIR FCKING BITCHY FACES TILL I GRADUATE .

Honestly , WE DO NOT PERFECT EYESIGHT SO DON'T EXPECT US TO SPOT EVERY MISTAKE THE MEMBERS MADE. YOU THINK IT'S FINE BLOWING THE WHISTLE EVERY SINGLE SECOND ?!

AND WE'RE FCKING NOT BIASED OKAY . * I totally heard this from this fcking bitch who said don't want me as the emphere. OH SO ? & the timekeeper told me i had scolded " fck you " to her. Which i don't have the slightest idea when i said, and i'm jolly happy i said that to her.

YES, SO WHAT IF I'M EAGLES ,SO WHAT IF I HAD ACTUALLY KEPT ON BLOWING FOR YOU HAVING A FAULT . AND YOU JUST SAID I'M BIASED BASED ON YOUR THOUGHTS WITHOUT GETTING A WHOLE UNDERSTANDING OF THE SITUATION ?!

PLEASE GET THE FCKING IDEA STRAIGHT.

1) Mrs Ku has already said the rules which are applied, and explained CLEARLY TO ALL PLAYERS.
( Or maybe you're just too deaf. Tsk )
2) YOU DID MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE , ON STEPPING THE LINE WHEN THROWING IN THE BALL . AND I REPEAT , THE TOTAL SAME MISTAKE MORE THAN THRICE.
( Get a brain ok ? )

3) YOU HAD PLENTY OF FOULS BUT I DIDN'T POINT ALL OUT! ( Totally not being biased, just that angeline had noticed it out, but informed me not in time. )

SCREW YOUR PEA BRAIN, BITCH .

And SOME PEOPLE HAVE TOTALLY NO RIGHTS AT ALL IN SCOLDING US, THE EMPHERES DOGS PLEASE .

Get a fcking good look in the mirror .
Honestly, though i don't know you , don't have the impression of seeing you.
But from what my friend describe,
You're much more hideous than us, though i didn't stated we're like fcking chio or whatever.

Some people just can't keep their big mouth shut , or they are complaining they have too much of saliva ?
KEEP THOSE FCKING NEGATIVE COMMENTS TO YOURSELVES.

Honestly, being an emphere's not an easy job.
YOU HAVE TO KEEP WATCH OF TIME. SCORE . FOULS .
YOU THINK WE HAVE 3 PAIRS OF EYES ?!

WE CAN ACTUALLY SPOT MOST OF THE FOULS ARE ALREADY ENOUGH, WHAT . EXPECT US TO BE 100% PERFECT IN THIS JOB .

IT'S LIKE MY 1ST EXPERIENCE IN DOING THIS, SO DON'T EXPECT TOO MUCH.
HONESTLY IM EVEN SURPRISED I CAN MANAGED IT , DESPITE HOW SOME OF MY FRIENDS KIDDINGLY JOKED WHY AM I EVEN CHOOSED TO BE ONE.

ALL I CAN SAY IS, I'M PROUD OF TODAY WHAT I HAVE DONE.

AND I DON'T WANNA FCKING CARE WHAT YOU PEOPLE HAS GOTTA SAY.

Don't expect people to be that perfect in something when you can't even do it.